just when i thought that econs is history, i realised that the school has assigned it to us as an elective for this semester.... somehow history seems to repeat itself over and over again. i remember being so happy in sec 2 after the final history exam thinking that i won't have to have another of that exam again only to learn that i have to take social studies in upper sec. it isn't exactly history but the exam format is no different from history- and it has some history or rather nation-building of singapore. i was hugely disappointed but i thought "hey, it's only 2 years. i can survive that definitely!" and i did. sort of.

after having a tough time with my humanities subjects for the 4 years in secondary school, i was ecstatic after the o'levels, thinking that humanities is out of my life forever, but my ecstacy was short-lived because humanities has become a compulsory subject in the a'levels. due partly to peer pressure and the fact that i didn't exactly have the prior knowledge to take any other humanities subject, i took up h2 econs.. the past 2 years were truly a torture to me. failing practically every econs test in school, i had to force myself to study for the a'levels, to the extent that i almost spent too much time on it that i nearly neglected my other subjects. then came the result which wasn't exactly fantastic but i was satisfied. at least it was the best grade i've ever obtained in my entire life of taking econs up to that point.

next comes uni life... even though it's the same subject, the style of teaching, the reference textbooks used, and even certain theories are slightly different from what i learnt in jc. well, maybe it's not different but just put in a different manner and my inept econs brain just couldn't process it immediately. thankfully, and hopefully, it's only for this semester since i'll be able to choose my own elective after this so i have no excuses to complain then since it's an elective of my own choice.

it's only for less than a year, even less than half a year so i believe i can do it. i've survived 2 years of what i think is pure torture and i've emerged stronger than before so i believe this is peanuts. the previous experience with econs had also aided my understanding better so... i'll just see what comes along next.

i shouldn't complain since this is a course of my own choosing. PERSEVERE!

がんばってね！私は　いいです！勉強勉強勉強！